I am pretty pissed off at the moment with everything, I am worried about all these tests I am having even though they will probably come back that they can't find anything serious ( hopefully ) but you can't help stressing about it,
I have had a few problems with the EX WIFE lately which I wont go into on here just don't sit next to me in the pub or I will bore the arse off you over them.
Life in general has been a bit up and down and not in my normal routine and the last couple of months the weather has been shite on the whole which has resulted in less riding of my bike I am about 450 miles down on last year and this year is a year I wanted to improve on last year !
All this tends to make me return to my usual comfort crutch food and drink I hate to use the term but it's a vicious cycle.
I have been pissed off and angry a couple of times this week and I have gone out and got takeaways , why do I do that ? I said I was going to cut down on drinking and I haven't , why not ? Have I got some self destruct button ?????
My weight is static at 15st 7 lbs and doesn't seem to budge
I need a big fucking boot to kick me up the arse and get back on track.
Moan fucking moan moan moan........... you get the picture
Anyway on a positive note I managed to get out on the bike over the weekend with my two youngest Joe and Billy and we had a ride on the Transpennine trail to Spike Island along the canal we managed 10 miles round trip and I'm glad the boys made it without too much effort, we did get rained on though on the way back and in true dad style I had not taken any coats or anything for them so they did a bit of whinging but on the whole we enjoyed it and Billy is now re-christened Billy Wiggins he just needs to wait about 12 years before he can grow the sideburns.
|An estate agent would describe this as a fixer upper|
|On the trail|
|The boys quenching their thirst|